dreamy
dabbled
dactylic
dawdling
dusty
definite
detailed
diaphanous
decadent
devoted
drowsy
doting
written from the viewpoint of a girl who grew up in a Christian household in the Bible Belt, but took until her freshman year of college to realize the beauty of being God's beloved and the value of a relationship with Him.
“How can I just sit here fully enjoying Your presence and the joy that comes with it when others aren’t?”
“Victoria, you’ve just been seeing my back – there is so much more to my passion that fuels your own. What you’re feeling right now -- this is what my face looks like – this is my heart breaking – this is what I feel for my people hurting that don’t know me .” Cue the waterworks.
Romans 8:28: And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose
Philippians 2:13: For it is God who works in you to will and act in order to fulfill his good purpose.
"Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. Whoever sows to please their flesh, from the flesh will reap destruction; whoever sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life. Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers."
Malachi 3:10: Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this,” says the Lord Almighty, “and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that there will not be room enough to store it.”
The God who created billions of stars and anti-gravity and mountains and snow and clouds created you. And you have little canyons carved into your skin and little creeks of blood running under them. You are so much more intricate and valuable than you think.
... You are the treasure I cannot afford, the pearl of great price. ... You are worth my everything, you are worth it all. ...
Matthew 13:45-46:
MSG: “God’s kingdom is like a jewel merchant on the hunt for excellent pearls. Finding one that is flawless, he immediately sells everything and buys it.”
NIV: “The kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it.”
"Oh."Guys, we all know Christianity centers around grace -- we were freely given a salvation that no amount of works or good deeds can earn. And I think that concept applies to a lot of aspects, not just salvation. I hear a lot of people say or post something like this: "Until you are content in your singleness, don't get married or don't date." While I don't think I've ever directly said or implied this, if I have or if you've taken something I've said as something that implies this, I'd like to apologize to you now for that -- because I'd like to humbly submit tonight that this "don't date until you're content in singleness" is an error in thinking. I realize that it's usually a well-meaning piece of advice that people offer up because we all want to see our friends content and happy in God's provision, but I think the most flawed thing about his piece of advice is that it creates a work-based mentality to receiving gifts (and people like me can get caught and tangled up in that 'I need to do this to get this' mentality pretty dang quick if we're not careful).
This is the main thing I've learned over these past eight months: my will constantly crosses God’s will and my will must die.
We must walk away from anything that hinders our love for God. To know if something is doing this, we must keep God involved in our lives. We must choose to give things up to Him and choose to tell Him everything.
“God, I think it’s so cool that you know how hard it is for us to cut things off, and that’s why you offer us the gift of an undivided heart. While you and I both know I’m not in a relationship right now, before I even get into one, if I ever do, God, I want an undivided heart. I realize that my Spiritual heart needs for my physical heart to be in tune to it, but I know I can’t make that happen alone. God, you know I’m consumed with the idea of love and being accepted and wanted by a guy who can lead me in a Godly relationship. And while I realize wanting a relationship is a healthy desire to have, I don’t want it to be more of a desire than me desiring You only. I just pray you’ll instill discernment in me as well as an undivided heart. I want to be Your servant and I know your plans are the best for me – replace any desires for finding myself in a guy with finding myself and my identity and confidence in You and You alone.”
And this is where the question I mentioned at the beginning of this post comes into play: “Lord, in Your heavenly plan, what are You teaching me and how long does it take?”
O'BROTHER, "OH, CHARITABLE THIEF"
Everyone seems to walk out of my life at one point or another. I know I should be content with just Your attention and contentment, but Lord, it’s so hard for me. I crave that relationship with people part of my life and it’s so hard seeing everyone around me find great, Godly men and I’m over here never having a guy who is truly after Your heart express interest in me. You know that I’ve always struggled with being that one girl back in middle and high school that never had that attention. I know I only need You to feel complete and I know You find value in me and call me Your beloved, but it’s so hard for me to accept that truth when it feels like the I can count the number of people who truly value me on just one of my hands. Despite knowing Your truth, I just feel worthless, unwanted, and unloved. What makes others so desirable and what makes me so undesirable? How I am supposed to act upon Your calling for my life when I just feel like I’m a screw up and find it so hard to have others accept me into their lives? I know Satan’s planting that doubt in my head, but Lord, right now I don’t have the strength to fight it.
“Shout out to all the ladies who can’t [insert a talent here that you don’t have] that aren’t desirable to modern-day Christian boys, holla…Being surrounded by {a majority of Christians who all have the same talents that you don’t have} is such a downer sometimes. Like, ‘hey, I can’t [insert a talent here that you don’t have], but I’m lovable too.’…I mean, it’s great to recognize God-given talent and use that to glorify Him, but don’t just recognize one kind of talent and make other people feel like they’re less important for furthering the Kingdom or that they’re less desirable as a potential partner to serve Christ with just because they don’t have that one popularly recognized talent. It’s like saying one person’s calling is more/less anointed than your own.” (…does anyone else see all the bright red flags popping up in that text message conversation and how my heart was in the wrong place therefore making me susceptible to Satan’s arrows?)
When they arrived, Samuel saw Eliab and thought, “Surely the Lord’s anointed stands here before the Lord.” But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” Then Jesse called Abinadab and had him pass in front of Samuel. But Samuel said, “The Lord has not chosen this one either.” Jesse then had Shammah pass by, but Samuel said, “Nor has the Lord chosen this one.” Jesse had seven of his sons pass before Samuel, but Samuel said to him, “The Lord has not chosen these.” So he asked Jesse, “Are these all the sons you have?” “There is still the youngest,” Jesse answered. “He is tending the sheep.” Samuel said, “Send for him; we will not sit down until he arrives.” So he sent for him and had him brought in. He was glowing with health and had a fine appearance and handsome features. Then the Lord said, “Rise and anoint him; this is the one.” So Samuel took the horn of oil and anointed him in the presence of his brothers, and from that day on the Spirit of the Lord came powerfully upon David. Samuel then went to Ramah.
“Look at what I've given you! How can you use it best for me? Stop critiquing how I designed you and instead lean into your own beautifully unique design. Abide in me! Know my plans are meant for good! I want you and My Kingdom to growth and prosper! Stop caring if other people care about your talents and your passions. I CARE. I AM ENOUGH. You do what you think is best with that I've given you and I’m going to use you there.”